It has been long since I wrote in. Well got alot to say but I will "try" to keep it short. The past few weeks has been very busy for me therefore had no time to write in. Just finished my field camp and now I kind of relieved that I had completed one of the toughest phase of BMT. The 6 days were like hell for me because I couldn't contact my loved ones and it was the first time I did not talk to darling for a continuous period of time. I felt depressed about this half way through the camp. I know darling also go through alot during this period. But I always take it in the positive way that these are the times in which it shows how strong our love is between us. I am pretty sure it is the strongest love that no one could develop. Well it was thursday and I was back in camp but unfortunately the day which I looked forward to turned into an unfortunate day for me. When I returned to camp, I couldn't walk because of an allergic reaction due to an insect bite and I was admitted to medical centre. I was in the sick bay for a day and couldn't call my loved ones and was thinking of them throughout. This field camp has brought alot of experience to me. Sorry darling I couldnit wish you happy Anniversay too. Happy 5th month Anniversary darling. Darling you are the best. I love you so much and I am so glad to have gotten such a understanding girl who could understand so much about me and what I am going through. I just hope that we will be as happy as we are now or even more happier and the love, understanding, care and concern you show towards me will not decrease. I love you alot darling. Darling if I do anything wrong in these 5 months to have hurt you I am really sorry. Darling You are turning 18 soon and I don't want you to change yourself because of the extra freedom you will be getting. Frankly, to me 18 wasn't something I was looking forward too because every year I will be the same regardless of how mush freedom I get. I could do so much things when I am 18 but I did not. I will be the same. But darling I will not stop you from doing things but I do have this little fear in me that I couldn't express to you. Darling is the type who trys things out in curiousity. It is not wrong. But yah just don't get addicted to some things and change yourself. I want you to be the same darling that I got in 18 december 2009. You know darling I will not be able to bear to see you change. I know you wouldn't but some things may seem pleasant at that time in which you would not know what the consequences will be. But I trust you darling. Love you lots. Take care. Muacks.

It is been long since I last post. After a month in NS, I get to spend much time with darling yesterday. I meet her every week but only for a short time. Yesterday, the time I spent with her was so precious to me. I miss darling so much. Darling, hope you did enjoy your time too. Sorry for disturbing you in the movie again. Haha. Darling I want you to be happy always. The time we were together in the rain was nice. I did enjoy it though I was feeling cold because I got wet. Haha. Thanks darling for giving me more happiness in my life. Love you take care.

Today is Sunday. It was supposed to be a family day but dad had to go back to work to complete his work. I called mummy out but she was tired so I went out a while in the evening. When I came back home, I ate my dinner and watched television. My stomach was not right the whole day. I was feeling sick. Today was an alright day for me. Miss you darling.. Love you. Take care.

Today was a bad day for me. My mood went off after something happened. But it was my fault for that to happen. I went to City Hall for a while to get something but did not had the mood to shop so walked around then went back home and sat in front of the television. My brain was not working because of my mood. Darling went out so did not called her out. When darling reached home, she called me and we talked. I felt happy after darling talk with me. Darling I love you alot you know. Misses you alot. Lessons learnt today were to make things clear whenever needed and not to think too much in future.

Today is a tiring day as I was made to travel up and down because of my agency. Farrah followed me. Thanks alot darling. After completing the mission, we went to watch movie then followed Farrah to visit her friend in Orchard. After eating, Farrah was feeling unwell. She ate too much. :( Then after visiting her friend we headed home. Interesting thing is we reached home in the same time :) Hope darling you are well. Take care. Miss u. Love you lots.

Today spent my day with Farrah. We went to Pasir Ris beach to spend our day. On our way, we saw horses which are so cute. Then walked all the way near the sea to sit down. After a while Farrah and I went to the sand to play. Farrah splashed water on me and we ran around but stopped after seeing stones. We washed our legs then sat down till 7.30pm. Then we went to play in playground for awhile before leaving home. I enjoyed my time with you darling. Love you lots.