It has been long since I wrote in. Well got alot to say but I will "try" to keep it short. The past few weeks has been very busy for me therefore had no time to write in. Just finished my field camp and now I kind of relieved that I had completed one of the toughest phase of BMT. The 6 days were like hell for me because I couldn't contact my loved ones and it was the first time I did not talk to darling for a continuous period of time. I felt depressed about this half way through the camp. I know darling also go through alot during this period. But I always take it in the positive way that these are the times in which it shows how strong our love is between us. I am pretty sure it is the strongest love that no one could develop. Well it was thursday and I was back in camp but unfortunately the day which I looked forward to turned into an unfortunate day for me. When I returned to camp, I couldn't walk because of an allergic reaction due to an insect bite and I was admitted to medical centre. I was in the sick bay for a day and couldn't call my loved ones and was thinking of them throughout. This field camp has brought alot of experience to me. Sorry darling I couldnit wish you happy Anniversay too. Happy 5th month Anniversary darling. Darling you are the best. I love you so much and I am so glad to have gotten such a understanding girl who could understand so much about me and what I am going through. I just hope that we will be as happy as we are now or even more happier and the love, understanding, care and concern you show towards me will not decrease. I love you alot darling. Darling if I do anything wrong in these 5 months to have hurt you I am really sorry. Darling You are turning 18 soon and I don't want you to change yourself because of the extra freedom you will be getting. Frankly, to me 18 wasn't something I was looking forward too because every year I will be the same regardless of how mush freedom I get. I could do so much things when I am 18 but I did not. I will be the same. But darling I will not stop you from doing things but I do have this little fear in me that I couldn't express to you. Darling is the type who trys things out in curiousity. It is not wrong. But yah just don't get addicted to some things and change yourself. I want you to be the same darling that I got in 18 december 2009. You know darling I will not be able to bear to see you change. I know you wouldn't but some things may seem pleasant at that time in which you would not know what the consequences will be. But I trust you darling. Love you lots. Take care. Muacks.